My Up Coming Surgery

 SO one of my first blogs was about how I hate my head and was oncvinced it was trying to explode on me. (found here) I have had these amazingly horrible, insanely painful, so bad I feel it all over makes me throw up from the pain near daily headaches. We thought it was migraines because I dealt with those as a teenager and young adult and thats what it felt like. I took the daily preventitave medications and they didn't help. We then moved on to antibiotics and I took like 5-6 rounds of different kinds to "clear up anything that may be wrong" without any imporvement. I had a nice break around Christmas where the headaches were not as intense nor daily but still there and still annoying enough for me to know it's more than a simple headache. One day came when I started feeling like I had been punched in the eye, the left eye, in the night. All around my eye hurt so bad and felt like it was swollen like a pressure behind my eye and I went to the doctor thinking something was wrong. I saw three doctors that day to check out my eye and everything around it because it could have been early onset glaucoma one doctor said and all was fine. My doctor said it had to be my sinuses and sent me home with loratabs, steroids for the imflamation, and new antibiotics. She said come back in a few days if I wasn't any better....few days later i wasn't any better and I take those loratabs like candy the pain was just so bad I could barely function. She sent me home with new perocepts, more antibiotics, a referral to an Ear Nose Throat Head and Neck doctor and needing a CT scan of my head....finally real help! The results of the scan showed no lumps thank goodness but the ENT needed to review the scan to further assess me so I had an appointment Presidents day.
 My appointment there was pointless and I left crying. My doctor's forgot or just simply did not send over the scan to the ENT and since I am seen at a military hospital they were closed for President's day and nothing could be done more than take my history listen to my symptoms and wait for the scan to come in. The ENT said then there would be two paths to take 1.) more meds and a ton of them 2.) surgery to clear things up and he was leaning towards surgery based on my history and how I was right then. He said he would review the scan and the nurse would call to set up another appointment after he did that.
 Two days later around 5pm the ENT called from his cell phone on his way home from the office, he said he normally does not do that but he felt he needed to call me himself. Oh there is such a good sign.... *read with scarsism*. My scan showed top 10 worse cases of badly infected sinuses, all of them but mainly the left side. He said there is no way around having surgery it needs to be done and that his nurse would call and get me in asap to go over what all needs to be done and why. Cue me to freak out right about then.
 My next appointment showed how bad my head is. Apparently I have what he called a "witches brew" going on because in the scan you can actually see the gas bubbles brewing. My left deep sinus the one at the base of your brain is so badly infected I run a high risk of it leaking or rupturing into my brain and me getting a bad case of menegitis from it. That needs to be suctioned and flushed out. My frontal sinuses need flushed out and some rerouting done to help them drain better and I have a badly deveated septum that needs fixed. He said my surgery should last some where near 2hours depending on what all happens during surgery and I should be down at least 10 days. I also need a brain mapping scan done first so that he can see the route to take for everything and not mess something up cause he said "you like to see right?" HA HA HA I forgot to laugh at that one. I am waiting on them to call to set everything up but I have to abstain from my beloved advil until after I have surgery and that's killing me....I can take tylenol but it doesn't help me much the pain is just too awful and the swelling on my brain is the cause the swelling is from the badly infected sinuses all over my head.
 I am happy that the end of this daily nightmare pain is in sight. I finally have a known cause for this horrible feeling and daily crud. I am however very afraid of surgery especially anywhere near such important things such as my brain. I only ever had one surgery before when The Marine and i were having troubles concieving and it wasn't so bad but it wasn't anything major at all. This seems like it will be worse and I am scared of it all but it needs to be done I need to feel better and I need to not let it go and get menegitis! so hopefully the doctors nurse calls me soon and sets things up so that I have a date.