I am a social person

 A lot has happened in my life in the past few years I almost forgot I actually am a social person, sometimes.
 Since I had Piper and we moved here to Alabama and then having Logan I had lost friends...well real life friends...I have a ton of people who live inside this computer who I always talk to but nobody really here live in person. Before we moved I was a key voultneer wife with the Marine's last unit and so I knew a lot of people, a lot of other wives. I went out and did a lot of events and always liked hanging out with people. Then we moved and I knew nobody here cause it's not a fleet unit...it's a reserve unit and things are vastly different. I was limited to a few other wives and honestly at first I didn't even care. I started HATING this unit with a passion and I am not even sure why it started, though I do have my valid reasons now for hating, I am not sure what exactly started it. I went to try and be a KV again here but said scratch that the whole KV system changed and it isn't even called that anymore so I said to hell with it, which costed me meeting new people. I then got pregnant again when we got here and when I am pregnant it means I live in my bathroom and I do not even joke about that, so going out and meeting new people was zero on my list of to do's. I started getting more out there when we started taking Bradley Birth classes...and even more so very recently...I guess having the reserve Marines get activated makes it feel more like a real Marine unit?
 Anyways aside from all my excuses I have been getting out more and more and I forget I love social things. I do love being out and laughing with people and having fun. Today I took the kids to an event (bikes or bust) and had a lot of fun. I need to stop being so homeward and stuff and get out and do more... there are a handful of wives I really like and enjoy hanging out with. I just need to stop whatever my excuses are and get out, even if I drag two kids along with me dang it I want more of a life outside the home back!
 So here is to getting out and being more ME!

6 weeks and counting...I hate you head

For the past 6 weeks minus 3 days I have had a headache, ranging from mild and manageable to migraine awful curl up and die. The day the headaches started was Oct. 3rd and was also my first time in church in more years than my 2yr old can count....maybe it's the devils work. Well I have been to my doctor twice, the ER once, and laid up in bed many more times. As nice as my PCM actually is, she is of no real help to me besides a referral to a neurologist. She was able to give me two shots however when I went to see her, toradol and phenegran which helps keep my intense head pains away for about a day and any relief is welcome to me. So I wait on this referral knowing there really isn't much I can do besides call The Marine husband and beg him to come home so I can lay in my dark quiet cool bed and know the kids aren't downstairs unattended. I started taking Inderal recently in hopes of preventing migraines from coming every.single.flipping.day but so far no change. I know I would have more medicine options if I would just stop nursing the kids, but I practice child lead weaning and do not wish to wean them before they are ready for it...although if faced with no other choice between them nursing and me feeling like myself again I would like to think I have given them a great start and gently wean them.
 So now I am not the person I normally am. I am beyond zombie tired, lay on the couch with sun glasses on, my kids watch WAY too much tv recently and I have been a horrid housekeeper/chef all because of my flipping stupid head and it's desperate need to kill me slowly. I wish I could get back to being myself again....and soon. Migraines suck...

This is for me

This is for me, this is my blog about my take on life. I am the mother of two amazing kiddos who I choose to parent differently than the 'norm'... I guess it's a rather crunchy way. My husband just happens to be a United States Marine, which just brings forth a crap ton of fun (and when I say fun I mean anoyances, but I cannot exactly speak to that as I do not wish my husband to get page11 or an njp so I will censor myself as much as I can).
 I am and always have been a firey redhead woman with an opinion all my own. I have always walked a different path and likes things like that, but I also struggle with the normal things like everybody else. So this is my blog for me, and nobody else... you can just read it.