I Often Want a Village

 I was reading up on some of my favorite blogs today one from The Feminist Breeder about how she gets so much done because she has this amazing village to help with the kids, cleaning, cooking, laundry, and all that awesome stuff I alone take care of. I honestly got a tad insanely jealous of her and all her help. I imagined what I could do if I had even half that kind of help then I looked at my disaster living room while my Ladybug pushed Mister down for the hundreth time this morning, I wanted to cry. I am here at home with my two children who are barely 16 months apart one who has major "mine" issues and the other who doesn't talk at all so he cries at literally everything and anything or for anything and everything. My house is trashed, toys explodes from the toy room (what a noble idea that was...a room just for toys?! HA) to the entry, to the living room including all over the couches, to the laundry room, through the dining room and kitchen and then back around to the toy room. My kitchen remains messy from two of the past meals and a dishwahser needing to be emptied (hey I at least remembered to run it!). I want to cry when I think about the never ending and continuing to pile up on me amount of laundry I have and I often try to hide it under the bed just so I don't have to see it.

I want a village please.

 If I had a village imagine what life could be like. A home cooked meal every meal time (I honestly strive for this and I get burnt out cooking everything quickly), the kitchen would be clean after every cooking mess I make, laundry could come out from it's hiding places and get clean and maybe evern put away too, I could get to the post office maybe.... I wish I had family close enough to call and say hey mind watching the kids while I run out real fast and do x-y-and z. Yes I have The Marine's parents about an hour away but it's far enough to have to call in advance and plan trips for things, plus I honestly feel like I am such a burden asking them for help even though they say it's their pleasure to be with the kids....plus did you see gas prices?! yikes! My mom and a brother live about 13hrs away in North Carolina, my dad and step mom another 12hrs away in Ohio, a brother in Reno, sister in law in Kansas (dang it she has perfectly aged babysitter children too). So here I am with my kids and a husband who is married first of all to his job....so my house is messy-I am uneducated (when compared to some other people who have help)-laundry needs to be done and meals need to be cooked.... I do them all.

 Then I read this blog and felt renewed about my messy insane life. I have these two kids here playing and laughing I get to stay home with them!!! Lucky for me cause the majority of people have no choice but to go back to work and leave kids with daycare centers. Yep I almost never have a day when both kids are in gloriously happy moods, nobody cries or get yelled at or where time outs don't exist. Yep I complain a lot to my husband and often times beg him to come home to help me and let me get away. When I sit and think I know it could be worse...right?! :-p I am in all honesty blessed to have this life and while we face the uncertain future I need to just take a step away from the negitive downage and enjoy what the things in this life i enjoy the most. I still want a village to help me and I am still jealous of those who do it but this is my life and I don't think I would trade it for anything!