Recently I have stated how the deployment, the lupus, and my feelings about it all. This states where I have let other drive me crazy. Feeling like the outsider of a group isn't a fun feeling. I will be frank here, I thought a unit of Marine wifes were all supposed to help, support, and generally be there for others...not for a bunch of catty, mean, and rude behavior. I noticed on facebook an event was created a 'girls night out' and invited were a bunch of the other wives/girlfriends to go out for dinner, a social event, something fun. My feelings got hurt when nobody thought to invite me, was that childish of me? Maybe. Was it a natural reaction to not being invited out by a group of owmen you are supposed to have a kinship with? Yes. It hurt my feelings, I know my husband didn't deploy, is that the reaosn I wasn't thought of? Or is the reason my alternitave pareting ways, even though I do not preach or push them onto others? Whatever the reaosn it hurt, and the hurt was made worse when somebody who's husband isn't even active duty or a reservist anymore was invited to go out (her husband was in and trainedand everything but then got out right before the deployment...) So if the reason isn't cause my husband didn't deploy, what was the reason I was left out?
The next straw that rboke the back was the facebook group created for all wives/girlfriends/moms/whomever to keep in touch, talk, plan events, anything really... I was over-looked to that invite too... again hurt? yes. Normal feeling? who wouldn't be? Should I have put big girl panties on? Probably, but being me I just got mad and upset about the whole thing. I went on a facebook friend purge and I ended up getting rid of a bunch of people who I counted as friends who for whatever reason just decided I wasn't worth hanging around or anything. People whom I offered anything to, watched kids for, helped out in any way possible, and would have bent over backwards for.... I guess it is just easy to take advantage of one's genuine generousity.
I will be honest I got rid of a lot of people from the unit, I was tired of it, tired of them, tired of the bullshit of the unit. Seriously this is the unit that gives Marine wives bad names in my opinion....you know the catty "Im better than you, my husband is this rank, omg lets gossip behind their backs and pretend to be nice to their face" that type of crap... (It isn't everybody...never is everybody...it's just a select group who ruin things for others like always). Well i thought I got them all, I didn't...crap in my haste I forgot a husband...who then started in on me today on facebook (and proved the very reason I was deleting people)... I am just tired of it.
I thought being a Marine wife meant a whole kinship of owmen who know what it is, what it takes, and how to deal with being the wife of a United States Marine. Maybe I was spoiled by previous units, where things ran smoothly. Maybe I am taking this all out on context, and it isn't all what it seems, who knows... I no longer care to know. Sorry if this was a little hard to follow, my emotions still get the best of me when I think about everything. I am sorry to my husband if you end up getting "talked to" at work for me being frank about things. Maybe if that were to happen the person who is doing the talking to can see no unit names, no names at all were said. Censorship was used to the best of my ability but I still do have freedom of speech. This is all just my two cents, not his.
A person can only drive you crazy when you give them the keys
I took my keys back, good luck finding them!
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